Whenever I feel compelled to prove that I am in fact, useless, I spend a lot of time comparing myself to strangers on the internet. That's my futile habit of choice.
I get a sort of twisted satisfaction from this kind of comparison. And that's because depression lies. It plays with your brain and tells you that you are less than, and that you don't deserve any success or happiness.
One of my favourite quotes comes from Eleanor Roosevelt: "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
And therein lies my problem - I not only give that consent to others, I engender it in myself.
But I really want that to change. While my depression is in remission, so to speak, I am going to try with all of my heart and mind to release myself from the comparison trap. I want to look at strangers' accomplishments and feel hope and inspiration, not despair and defeat.
We all have our own paths to lead in life, and I need to remember that there will always be some people ahead of me and other people behind me, and that that fact simply is what it is and has no bearing on my life.
Wish me luck.
P.S. Advice is always welcome. Please share in the comments if you have any words of wisdom.